myspace just dont do it.

hey. if youre here. then thanks for uh. reading this. i pretty much made this thing cuz i have too much shit on my mind. and since my bffffffff (no homo) cant keep shit to himself. im telling it to the world. which is kind of..redundant? i dno. but i got no one else to talk to, so if you're reading this, youll know all of my business. ahaha. damn. just dont give me shit for it when i talk to you ok? ok.

anywhooo..ever since how sweet, my life is on fucking lockdown. i got my fone taken away. im not allowed to use the internet. i cant go to ANYONE'S house. i cant even go out after school to eat anywhere. my fucking mom, who, before how sweet, wasnt able to get off work till after 530 and made me wait for so long in the parking lot, is now conveniently waiting for me in the parking lot at 430 everyday. its no problem now to pick me up i guess. i cant go out with the track team after meets either, like i normally do. everyone thinks im gonna go blaze or drop instead. cuz i would totally do that after a track meet. rite? the only reason im on the internet rite now is cuz i snuck a computer into my room and i have wireless internet. half an hour ago, my mom and dad walked in my room and discovered i have internet. this is the last nite ill have this computer. great. everyone in corona hates me again. well, the parents anyways. my mom has to call the whole fucking world when i sneak out you know? cuz she didnt know i snuck out to rave it with ian. im sure she didnt. she had to call everyone ELSE and make sure i wasnt there, and then proceed to tell them that i went to a rave and im doing drugs. thanks mom. what else..school is going semi okay..im doing my homework and shit. but theres only like 30 days left. wtf should i do it for..im going to missouri in september for college anyways. im pretty much accepted there. my cousin (who my parents think is god) was valedictorian or whatever. and she has hookups. and so they think its a good idea to ship me off to missouri. did you know st louis has a THRIVING rave scene? im still in love with dishani. not so sure about her with me. i think its cuz i havent seen her in 2 months. its not my fault i dont drive, and my friends dont wanna drive me all over the countryside to see her. it used to work before, but my friends saw that i was using them and um. yeah. so as of july 3rd, i wont see her at all until january. im sure she doesnt wanna keep me around. im just bracing myself for when she's finally gonna admit it. she told me she wanted me to wait. so i said ok. and now she said that were losing love for eachother. speak for yourself. shit. im tryna hitch a ride with someone. but i know he prolly hates me for using him too. but hopefully, he'll come through. and if your reading this bro. thanks a lot for everything. i know i use you, but it really does mean a lot when you do this kinda shit for me. thanks. anyways..im just waiting to see what happens between us. from the looks of it, its not gonna happen. i mean. she already has 1233809582907502 guys all over her nuts. who see her everyday. i dno. ill let you know what happens k? track is fucking tiring. yesterday, i was dead after the first part of the workout! wtf?? south hills this week. if we dont beat them, ima cut myself. ahaha. hopefully we can. i think we can. if we run smart. wish us luck! :)
many of my friends are starting to do drugs now. and its all they talk about. its ok if you use them guys. and its ok to talk about them. for a day. after that, it just gets annoying when you keep telling me how you were moving your head from side to side and it felt like a rocket ship. i heard you the first time. shut the fuck up and get over it. thats what happens when you do drugs. everyone already knows. find something else to talk about.
alrite well. im out for now. ill hit this thing back up when i can get a computer! ahaha.
peace out girl scout.
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and i love you babe.