is god fucking with me?

is he even real? alrite. so check this out.
-i have parents who are all up on my ass about everything. i asked them for a check for 200 dollars for track. which EVERYONE else paid. my mom thinks ima use it for drugs. even tho the check is written to walnut high.
-the one girl that ive loved the most doesnt even associate with me anymore. i dno what i did. but ive lost her. i know this is all cliche and stuff, but its the worst feeling in the world when you love someone and they dont have the slightest bit of interest in you anymore.
-i think that some of my friends are getting sick of me. maybe im just being paranoid? but maybe im not. maybe im getting annoying now. maybe i should just lay low rite? but thats not me. i dont like not being me.
-im not gonna see SO many people that mean a lot to me after june 4th. i dont have a fone to get numbers and keep in touch with them because my parents refuse to give me it back.
-i have acne. and no matter what the fuck i do, that shit wont go away.
and to top all of this off.
-im moving to missouri. i have NO connections there whatsoever. im going to the midwest to a bible college, when i despise going to church 10 minutes away from my house. i dont even believe in god! and yet, my parents think its wise to send me halfway across the country.

so rate my life on a scale of 1-10.
i give it a 3 rite now.