true friends.

i fuckin love you fabian. thanks for coming last nite. even tho it was a bust. sorry if you think that i was using you or something. i actually was, but i hope you can understand that love is blind. and how girls really can come between friends. anyways..next weekend, ill definitely plan it out better ahaha. and other people will actually come over. XD anyways..yesterday was a bust. i was gonna try to sneak out at night and go to dishani's house. cuz i havent seen her in almost 3 months you know? so i called up fabian and i was like dude. lets blazeee and go hang out with dishani. hes like alrite. so he came over, and we couldnt find ANYone with bud. all the dealers were at prom. haha fuck my rents for not letting me go. what the hell are they thinking? butuh, yeah we couldnt find any. so i told him that dishani had some just so he would let me go see her. you know? cuz she kinda lives far. so we went to sleep around 1130 cuz we had to sneak out later on at nite. so i waited till 12. and i go check downstairs, and my mom is sitting on the couch watching some sri lankan movie. wtf. so i waited till 1. still, shes down there. i think she knew that we were gonna try something. but anyways, she was down there till 5 in the morning. so we couldnt get outta the house, and the whole plan got fucked up. :( sorry fabian. :( butuh. the thing that really pisses me off is that dishani went to audiotistic. without even telling me. yeah i know you called dishani. but i didnt pick up the fone. sorry. you could at least leave a message. what if we were outside your house and you were at audiotistic. whatever. i hate how you cant control yourself enough to not do drugs. its fucking disgusting how much you need it. actually, its not even about that. at least leave me a message on fabians fone saying that your going so i dont have to wake up every half an hour the whole nite to see if my mom is still down there. whatever. as of rite now, i dont even wanna be friends with you. you hurt me more than you make me happy. when you learn how to fix that, tell me. until then..later.
peace out girl scout.